Goodbye Darkness

Standing in the darkness, behind my life
Looking deeply into it's core
Wondering how I got here
Wishing I was anywhere else
As this landslide is burying me alive

Only after your death
Is there a chance
For your rebirth

So Today, I declare myself dead

I start work on my rebirth

When I look at you
I smile to thank you
For sharing your life with me
You smile back

Living The Dream

I want to close my eyes and fall into this dream
So I can make some changes to it
As you can see it is not quite the way
I have wished it to be

When I was a boy I played hockey everyday
Between the road and the ice
I dreamed of winning the Stanley Cup one day
Then this dream faded before it began
I did hold it - and kiss it - in the Hall of Fame once
I have a picture somewhere taken on film
It was a great day but it wasn't my dream

A family vacation in Montreal
Made me into a future Olympian
I became a long distance runner
Dreaming of winning the Marathon one day for my country
Running freed me of the real world
I loved my country better than, oh Canada
It was another love of my life which slipped away

Then as a teenager I wanted to sing and make music
I formed a band with a friend
I started to live my next dream
Then one day we had a visit from a friends friend
His name was Jeff, he played guitar and sang like a blues man
He was blind and became a music legend then died
I was replaced by him and then that was the end of this dream

When high school was done
I wanted to become a journalist
Since Carleton did not accept underachieving stoners

It was not to become my next dream

I cleaned up my young dirty ways
And met a young girl who believed I could win in life
I went to college at night and worked in the day
In a dirty old factory not part of my dream
I always believed in the power of the journey

She spent the little bit of money we had
On things we didn't really need
When it was apparent I wouldn't win in life
The lover stopped loving and we went our separate ways
Her new lover showed up within a few weeks
After ten years of living the dream
My heart had fell into a deep freeze

My next dream was living the bachelor life
It took me to Denmark for a Christmas
Wonderful days with future friends, family
And new traditions warmed my heart again
A colourful autumn trip through Algonquin
Hiking in tee shirts during an Indian summer
Was a great way to spend time with a new love
Then plagued with fear of losing another dream
I put an end to it instead

Then from serious to delirious
I met another friend to love


To be continued...

The Wisdom of Silence

A prisoner confined within my own thoughts

Searching for answers to which I know nothing

Meanwhile they are all around me

Shrouded in the darkness

Surrounded within the wisdom of the silence

The deep breath of stillness fills me

Silence brings me to the place of wisdom

It begins to teach me the way

Lessons lived and lessons learned